Tuesday, March 12, 2013

a long-awaited a-ha moment

I realized something obvious today: doing things for other people is awesome. Go ahead, roll your eyes. Ok, now admit it. You’ve felt it too--pure satisfaction and joy from the pure satisfaction and joy of others. Total, humble pride for making someone else smile. The kind that makes you want to pat yourself on the back and say “COOL” in your best little kid voice (you know, the one that’s just seen a worm or their plant grow). 

You touched another human being….right on the heart. And it’s becoming a little addicting. You don’t want to tell your mom because she’ll sigh and say, “wow, it only took you practically 23 years.” In fact, you probably don’t want to tell anyone because maybe they won’t understand. Maybe they won’t find it that breathtaking or maybe they’ve known this great secret all along. Maybe you don't want to admit you were out of the loop. Maybe they’ll furrow their brows in horror, tsking, “What have you been doing all these years?”

“Plenty of good,” would be my answer. “But not enough."

"Do unto others as you would have them do unto you" echoes to mock you. But it's not that you didn't understand. It's that now it fully resonates within you and, dare you say it, stems from your core. Now, you have full acceptance of this fact. Mind, body and soul.

That doesn't happen too often.

The journey has occurred once again from the head to the heart. It doesn't mean it's over. That I've got it all figured out.What it means is that right now, I'm at a point where this is crucial to the way I view the world. And this fact is what affects my actions and decisions and thoughts. 

You know, the fact that every single one of us has the power to drastically affect other people, for better or for worse. The fact that this can be a traumatizing or beautiful thing. The fact that I like affecting people for the better. The fact that this can be born of simplicity—a card, baked goods, a birthday reminder, a phone call, a question, a wave. The fact that these aren’t earth-shattering things. The fact that they are. 

And we should try to do them more often.